Yes, I have fallen off the writing wagon hard. Remember I said I was reading the Divergent series? Yeah, I probably should have waited until after NaNoWriMo was over to read it. One thing I have always known about myself, but not really acknowledged: it’s hard for me to find a happy medium sometimes between reading and writing. I either want to do nothing but writing or nothing but reading.
So, I highly doubt that I’ll actually reach the 50,000 word minimum by now (though if I include the writing I’ve done on here, plus that little rewrite I did, I bet I’d be getting close) due to the holidays and all that, but that’s okay. The whole point of NaNoWriMo is to prove to yourself that you do actually have time to write and to just force yourself to sit down and do it. And there have definitely been times thus far where I have done that. I attempted to write on either Friday or Saturday and only got 300 words. It’s still progress.
I know when I have time to write–in the morning before I go to work or before the day gets started on the weekend. Now it’s a matter of continuing the habit and trying to make sure I go to bed at a reasonable time during the week, especially. Because I have been reading, I’ve been going to bed around 10:00, not 9:30 like I should be. At this point, it’s a matter of continuing to establish the habit despite my other obsessions. I’ll have to work on finding the happy medium between reading and writing at the same time.
I’ll also admit I’m struggling a bit with writer’s block right now. Now that I finished up a big plot point, I’m trying to progress it to the next one and it’s a struggle, for some reason. I’m not sure if I’m focusing too much on certain characters or on relationships or whatnot instead of the plot, but it is a struggle right now. I’ll hopefully push through, but we’ll see.
Ah, well. The good thing is that reading the series actually knocked off two items from my Reading Challenge. The first book in the Divergent series (Divergent) was turned into a movie. The last book (Allegiant) is over 500 pages long. So, with that, I’m down to 10 books to read for the challenge! Hopefully I’ll get a lot of time to read with the holidays coming up, but that’s doubtful. I am planning to take off a few days around Christmas and New Year’s and do a bit of a staycation, so that may be a great opportunity to do a bunch of reading. (And, yes, hopefully writing.)
I’m not giving up yet. I’m still going to write in the mornings. I’m just doubtful I’ll reach 50,000 words by the end of the month. And that’s okay. The important thing is to just keep writing.